yea, depression is fuckin gay. times like this is when i feel as if its not even worth living. instantanous and pointless depression. its fuckin horrible. i dont even know why i get upset. i make myself believe things that arent true and then later i realize how dumb it is. i cant help it though. i have no self control at all. nobody understands except for maybe 2 people. i hate this. i hate depression. i hate contemplating. bye.